This is the place i live in It has windows and some bedrooms It has nurses and two cleaners But no mothers an no fathers It's a school without lessons And a garden not a yard With some trees Under which she sits It has brothers and some sisters Different needs for everyone Some of them are covered We've all found ourselves in a place worse Some may say we're free Things ungrateful people say I believe i like it more When i'm being ignored Staring at the world from my window Feeling cold due to the morning's winter breeze That makes me feel like i don't need to sleep Socialisation start me up Backpack's on the day began The morning doesn't last forever

Hello morning's painful breeze Everything is blurier than ever Anticipating a failure Caring these two smokey lungs While healing crumps And waiting for the sky to fall on my head Everyone rise now And wait for me to pass The king of hearts Misguided problematic friend Get up stand up (And carry it with you) Till it gets soaked in the rain (Your backpack's your heart) With all the problems you carry with you Remaining hidden Pick up a smile (And take it with you) Something to make your day (Till you will laugh) At all the problems you carry with you Then your day's ended And then you sleep on a lie till the next day comes

Maybe one day i'll wake up With my sunglasses on Protecting me from weird eyes And from kind words Cause people can make a god out of you But not for too long Can i really expect more Sometimes i want to stay in the bedroom forever So many people and yet they do not care They read newspapers They come back home And watch a show or two I want to tell the ones i've lost I don't want to be like everybody else But how can i When they can't listen Only stare From high above And even when i close my eyes The faces i see are not complete A malfunction of heaven maybe But who really knows So now i'm in heaven and they're in heaven too When i'm in heaven they'll be in heaven with me And they're in heaven and i'm in heaven now And they're in heaven with me I am in heaven and they are with me I do not care Maybe i will walk a higher path And when i die They will call me their son And when i die I will be the only one that was not left behind I wish when i die they'll regret their ignorance I'll make it for myself And on my own I'll finally become that one That everyone admires And i'll be lucky cause i'll owe it to no one And it will be a gift to those who weren't Behind me when i learned to walk Weren't in front of me when i learned to talk Weren't beside me when i missed my goals But not by choice

When i get out my doorstep I feel so afraid of the one's i don't know When i see people laughing I don't know for sure if they're laughing at me I hide in my mask of taughness As if i only need myself to be strong I have people to admire me And i know how special is my mask for them I am the king of fools you know that i stay Everywhere i'm liked I am the king of fools I know that i preach in vein Cause you will never listen I am the king of fools you know that i think I am the only one Who is a king of fools and doesn't admire himself Cause he knows it means nothing When i'm with other people I'm the best of beggars of compliments Sometimes when i'm rejected I spend time erasing my old enemy The side of me that is honest The shadow of everything i should have been I'm the one you slightly like But first let me introduce myself I am the king of fools you know I don't care if i'm not free I am the king of fools you see There is nothing in me worth to keep I am the king of fools tonight I tried to end my life I am the king of fools you know I'm running forward to wall I am the "you know who" you know that i will Soon be crowned as king I'll wear a crown of paper cause i'm the best of all In lying to myself I am the king of fools and i can trick you Into believing i'm true I am the king of fools the modern standard of A Desperate lonely liar I am the king of fools my kingom is dust But i'm happy anyway I am this mask cause i can't stand on my own And i don't want to hurt no more

So here we are again my friend With your pure blank pages I'm gonna tell you again about My late night melancholy How did i end up like this Why do i always screw up Is it just because i'm dumb Or because i don't care? I don't know just what to do I don't know How to make myself the one She asks for Now i feel it's in my veins The only drug that's wonderful Every time i want to be drugged It is always there for me Just when clouds of no-belief Cover all my feelings It's alright to have a place Where you won't be by yourself I don't know if i lie anymore I don't know how to cry when i must Let's go down to where we drown Let's go down to no-man's land Let's go down to where we drown Let's go down cause i don't care Let's go down hand by hand I don't fear the eternal darkness Let's go down to where we drown Let us burn our paper crowns I feel that apathy again That destroys my happiness And i don't know the reason why This is happening to me I don't know what's right or wrong And i'll never learn What forced me to put my faith Into her two hands I don't care if i only do what's wrong I don't know if what is wrong is in my thoughts I don't care what will be cause my throne Is my high hopes the dreams that i know Won't ever become true Let's go down to where we drown Let's go down to no-man's land Let's go down to where we drown Let's go down cause i don't care Let's go down hand by hand I don't fear the eternal darkness Let's go down to where we drown Let us burn our paper crowns

You who see the world as the worst of prisons You who seek as i seek free of all fears You who lies weakened half dead fearing of treason You who's ridiculed enough searching for solutions Come and make the world as one He who shares the brightest words full of belief And she who tears apart her flesh in disbelief We together shall rise up and change our dark fate This surreal perfect dream we should all believe in Come and make the world as one Rumbling friendships break to pieces But together we're indeed better than alone Lonely hearts scream out in despair Just like mine so take it from me Come and make the world as one (You will make the world as one)

Another time i saw you with the face on And didn't know if you disapprove the one i came to be I know you're kind of disappointed by the way things turned out to be Or maybe just not too proud of me Do my habits offend you? Or maybe does my face remind you of someone you have never met Are you scared of recognising yourself when you're with me? You locked yourself into our room Screaming your lungs out Believing this could change a thing But knowing that it won't While i fight my other side The one i think i only see The one that wants more than what i give him You tried to help me with my fight But i can see it in your eyes You don't believe in me anymore And i'm alone again I'm willful to move on Now that i see that you give up Now that you know who i am I didn't even hide it from you maybe you chose to love my mask Mrs Pumpkin don't go away You'll miss the coming end This mask has no eyes no lips It's the only one that you chose to show me You won't paint me with any colour You won't sing me any song Is it possible that you've been decieved Or it was your plan from the start to change me? Mrs Pumpkin worry not I don't hold the knife that stabs you It is you that wasn't careful What it was that you wished for You depart and softly slip In the quiet of our nursing home And i fear the sound of the closing door Something tells me it's the last time i hear it Now we're apart I'm not sure what i am The star we hid Burned us when we touched it These are our broken hopes That are now bleeding crawling on the floor We killed them together even though we're not both wrong But we could never change a thing I haven't been in your room for so long I've forgotten how it feels to be exposed These are the first lyrics i'll never show you You'll soon forget how you felt when we kissed I'll never stare at the sun without you Give your blessings to my confession So you are gone and i now remain Without the courage to remember So i'm still afraid of my blood And i don't wanna bleed no more I'm not cold-hearted no I'm just a coward Mrs Pumpkin in your veins Flows the blood that will never rot And your face's immortal As long as i see it And i still justify you But Mrs Pumpkin it will kill you This world you love

Woke up in a hurry A car's engine screaming outside While your voice was singing An unknown tune to me Saw you dancing outside While our window endured my blows It's true you leave me behind Waving your way outside My voice is cracking from fear At least stare at me before you go You stood to comfort my pain Threw five fingers in the air Gave me a smile that i'll never forget All these chances for a way out (But you promised ) I would give away again just for you (That you won't leave me) You are for me all i wanted and more (Yesterday we swore we'll be each other's safety boat) That's how it's ending in the first day of summer i feel cold (While today you left me to drown alone) Why do you smile Wild witch you lied You found new life And i cry denied

Paranormal and unwanted I stand in my night cell I lost here tonight the player got the lot of me A shadow on the wall shapes the warmest hand Is it his hand that i fear or is it the hand of regret? I stand proudly in the hand of my handler Playing in a game i can't really control I'm the inelible pride in the face of the player Staining the hopes of the ones that i love I wonder if the need to escape is real Or if these pills are used like a paintbrush to paint The guilt in the eyes that don't stare at me anymore You are not worthy of the gift of death whisper my fears in my ears I crawl a paranormal doll Begging for the love i need I crawl a paranormal doll Begging for it Will the pills in my stomach be the end of my trip Or is it true i can't resist the offer of life I dream of the moments i haven't yet lived Puking his pride from right inside of me

This is the train that leads the way towards insanity This is the way for you to lose control The subway lights will light the way (Mind's sick conquered by fear) Stations desire an endless rail (The body dies of smoke and alcohol) The mind has lost control (Of the smoke the dope the mind's design) Breathe captivity in me Breathe the desperation Smell the reason why i do it Smell it on my clothes Touch torn skin and broken ribs Car is driving downhill Believe that i don't care to die The hypocrisy Demon's in the bottle Grim Reaper's in the smoke Nicotine's injections Mind's puking teeth fall Hell the dirty empty room Lacks the warmth of hellflame It will take care of some wounds The illusion of the boiled soup I fall asleep now at last No one's gonna wake me Rumbling temple's my new body Struck by thunderbolt Endless losing of beloved ones Causes hair to fall The reflex of self-destruction Active by fault But i'm not scared of my own blood now And i will bleed on you Rumbling temple's my new body Struck by thunderbolt Endless losing of beloved ones Causes hair to fall The reflex of self-destruction Active by fault But i'm not scared of my own blood now And i will bleed on you It's the feast the great chance to Bleed the king for free So shower with my own blood now Take my limbs to eat Rumbling temple's my new body Struck by thunderbolt Endless losing of beloved ones Causes hair to fall The reflex of self-destruction Active by fault But i'm not scared of my own blood now And i will bleed on you Take my limbs to eat now And take my blood to drink Take your spirit off my room Carve your absence on the door Send your grief in hypersounds We're on different planets now Wish we'll meet again on Mars See what happens when Aliens love

The time and place for regret The cuts in the face that are not easily healed The blood on the glass that won't let you forget And now i know that Every memory i've ever built will go down as history A knife that will stab me hard every time i remember A wound that establishes me as a victim of myself I can't give away the present to correct the past And so my present becomes more painful every time I understand that i'll never have the chance again I know the guilts will stop when i feel more sorry for myself than i feel for you This is the range between the eye and the broken mirror